Is it really that selfish of me to want someone who only looks at me, only wants me in that special way? Why can’t you give them up? Why do I have to sit here and see that everyday you’ve followed yet another porn star, twerk account, or the girl you told you wanted over me. Why do I put up with this? Why can’t I just leave? I hate feeling like I’m nothing when it comes to you. I’ve been so lonely for so long that this type of sick relationship feels normal. I’m just so over feeling stuck and sorry for myself. This isn’t me at all I don’t put up with this shit ever; except for the past 944 days.